Sharpies and Butterflies suicidal!reader x Karkat

AUTHOR'S NOTE: im so sorry for the inactivity!!! i just got my internet on my laptop working so i will try to update more often now. i decided to come back with a fanfic<3~

trigger warnings: FOUL LANGUAGE, SELF HARM




It was a dreary, rainy, and quite honestly boring school day... Your name is _______ ______ and it just so happens on this boring day, your alien friend- err you think he is your friend... Karkat Vantas, was doing a school project with you on a novel. "HEY FUCKASS, ARE YOU GONNA STARE OUT THE WINDOW OR PICK A BOOK ALREADY? GRUBSNIFFER..." he grumbled. you rolled your (E/C) eyes and looked at him. Quickly, you made haste of searching books on your Mini Laptop. "REMEMBER ASSMUNCH, WE HAVE TO HAVE READ THE BOOK." He grumbled angrily. "I know, calm your tits already, Karkat!" You grumbled softly and examined the screen, tapping one of the book titles, "The Virgin Suicide." He frowned. "THAT IS A REALLY SAD BOOK...." Karkat mumbled. You agreed quietly. You both trailed off into thought as you stared at the screen, but were jarred from the mist of thoughts by the loud clattering ring of the school bell. "Well shit.....meet me at my house and we can do the book report, ok?" You asked him, and couldn't help but notice the faint tint of cherry red creeping onto his cheeks. "YEAH, OK.." He said and vanished. 'No insult? I hope he is ok...' You thought and began to walk. Then, SHE came up. "Weeeeeeeell, look what we have here." Vriska sneered, blocking your path home. "out of my way Vriska, i need ot get home so i can help Karkat with the book report.." You quickly shoved around her as she spat insults at you.


You forgot Karkat was coming, as you kicked open your door. In the haze of tears on your face you ran to the restroom, crashing and your into stuff and making a mess. You stared at your (h/c h/l) hair and (skin/c) skin. Disgust crossed your face and you pulled up your (F/C) hoodie sleeve. With no hesitation you took the blade to your skin, slashing in every which direction. Slowly, you slid down against the wall, the pain bringing relief. Your vision doubled, and blurred, then you blacked out.

BANG BANG BANG! BANG BANG!

You were jolted awake by loud bangs on your bathroom door. "ASSWHIPE, ARE YOU HOME? YOUR FRONT DOOR WAS OPEN AND UH, I'M KIND OF CONCERNED..." Karkat's familiar voice rang out. "Y-yeah, just, not feeling good" you did what you did best, or atleast second best, and forced yourself to throw up. Believing this, Karkat sighed. "OK...IF YOU FEEL BETTER TOMORROW, SINCE TOMORROW IS SATURDAY AND ALL, YOU CAN COME TO MY HIVE." He grunted, then left. You sighed softly. 'That was a close call....' You thought to yourself and began to bandage your wrists and clean up. You mumbled (f/song) by (band name) as you crawled into bed.

"____! ____!!!!" Karkat called your name. You opened your (e/c) orbs, they practically glowed in the dark. The bed sheets were soaked in something warm and wet. so were your wrists. You were in a hospital bed??? Slowly you turned to see a broken, sobbing Karkat shaking you softly. "WAKE UP ____! PLEASE GET UP!"

Instantly you snapped awake to your pesterchum going off. "I-it was a dream.." you whispered to no one, then checked your pesterchum.

CarcinoGeneticist, [CG] began trolling/pestering ChumHandle [CH] at [10:37 AM]

[CG] HEY NOOKWIFFER, WAKE UP. YOU CAN COME OVER NOW IF YOU WANT...

You hesitated, re-reading the message before replying:

[CH] on my way right now.

You jumped out of bed and put on your favorite shirt, some black cargo pants, and your (f/c) hoodie. You then put on your (f/c) Converses and trotted out the door, pulling your hair into a loose ponytail.

As soon as you arrived you knocked on the door. "Karkat?" you called softly. There was a series of thuds and then the door swung open, Karkat standing there. But wait....was he smiling?! You blinked and realized he was, but that smile faded quickly. "WELL, ARE YOU GONNA WAIT FOR A GOLDEN INVITE OR COME IN, ASSMUNCH?" He grunted. you stepped in, carelessly taking off your hoodie. "UH... ____? WHAT'S THAT ON YOUR WRIST..?" he pointed to the bloodied bandages. You froze. "Erh....I um...." You were silent. He walked over to you and took hold of you wrist, pulling out a sharpie. "... I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN... HOLD STILL" he said and uncapped the sharpie. He drew a butterfly onto your wrists, then wrote in alternian (which you had learned well) KARKAT VANTAS. "THERE. NEXT TIME YOU DO THIS, YOU KILL ME, OR THE FLUTTERBEA- BUTTERFLY." He said, looking up at you. "_______....I ....I CARE ABOUT YOU...A LOT..." He said, then leaned down and lightly kissed your forehead. "WILL YOU...BE MY UH..." You didnt need him to finish that. you smiled, saying that one word. "Matesprit? Of course." You whispered softly.

MIGHT do a part 2...? Y/N